Two Sundays ago I was at CrossFit Kingfield for the regular 11am class. We had done our warm up and then worked on a 4 rep max in the push press.
As the end of class came near, it was time for the main workout of the day. With a 15-minute time cap, the WOD was 5 rounds of the following:
- Sprint 100 meters
- 15 Thrusters
- 7 Handstand Push-ups
Like most people, I hate thrusters. The squatting and the pushing, the up and down, it makes me want to hurl. However, the more challenging element for me was going to be the handstand push-ups.
We loaded up our bars and found a place on the wall for handstand push-ups (HSPU). The only problem was that I had not done one single HSPU this year.
In fact, my experience before 2015 was limited to doing a few strict here and there (emphasis on few).
I had done plenty of handstand holds this summer, but always by way of a wall-walk to get into position.
Rightly so, Amanda, who was coaching, did not want us doing HSPU facing the wall. We were to kick-up into a hold, but I was totally out of practice with my handstands and was hesitant to kick-up into a hold.
Amanda encouraged me to give it a try. Yet I stood there hemming and hawing and regressing into my irrational fear that I was going to break my face.
A fear that I had gotten over in the past but that was rearing its ugly head again.
I asked what the scaled movement was and she said that it was dumbbell push presses. “F@ck that!” After 15 thrusters, I did not want to do dumbbell presses.
And yes, I am aware that handstand pushups are very taxing on one’s shoulders, but they sounded much better than the alternative.
And thus in my attempt to avoid the dumbbells, I got out of my head and kicked up into a handstand against the wall.
It wasn’t pretty as I started with my head on the ab mat on the floor, but I was able to push out of that into a handstand hold and then do the HSPU from there.
I don’t know if it was some sort of mental Jedi trick that Amanda played on me, but out of the pure laziness of not wanting to touch the dumbbells and deal with more weight than needed, I found myself doing HSPU in the WOD.
Amanda gave me some tips about kipping and I was actually stringing a few in the row. I ended up doing 24 in total, which was probably 20 more than I had ever done at one time.
This past Monday the WOD was “Diane” and suddenly I was doing 21 HSPU in a row in the first round. It’s probably cheap for me to say I was being lazy and thus kicked up into the HSPU.
The fact was I had for a moment lacked confidence in my own abilities and had forgotten how capable I was of doing these movements.
Eventually with my training I want to get to a place of complete “Yes!” where I don’t question or hesitate. I just do.